Apr 30, 2008

Leap of Faith

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My Boss has talked to me over the weekend about my "resignation" plan and after a lot of thinking, I have decided to stay with the company. For some reason, after informing this to the "other side," I really felt good. I felt that a big burden has been taken out from me. I remembered my little sweetcake. I remembered how in love I am with my husband.

The Pres of the other company told me he understood me, but was concerned that this may have an implication on how the management here will see and handle me. I told him that although the management has indicated that they will unconditionally welcome me, it may be true what he said. That though is the risk I have to take, and if ever I made the mistake of letting go of a very good opportunity in favor of staying with what I considered my second family (hahaha), then I would want to learn that myself.

So, I let go of being

BOSS

and my plan to get



and buy more of




In favor of...



Really, this is one

LEAP OF FAITH

Apr 28, 2008

LSS: Amazed by Lonestar

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For two days now, the song "Amazed" by Lonestar has been my Last Song Syndrome. It's a simple song with simple lyrics, but for some reason, the whole song just evokes the feeling of being in love. Specifically, it makes me remember how much in love I am with my husband. You know, that overwhelming feeling of love. I just can't explain it. Suddenly, I'm being transported to those moments when Enrique and I are in pure bliss, no worries, no problems, just the two of us passionately in love.

It's very rare that I post lyrics of songs, but I'd make an exception. Even more, here's also a video of that song...

"Baby I'm Amazed By You"

Everytime our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me, baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time everytime
I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

Apr 25, 2008

Guilty (Online) Pleasures

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Wow, this day is surprisingly a light working day here at the office, something that doesn't come too often. I just talked to my colleague and she agreed that it's a little boring today. Maybe because we're looking forward to an exciting weekend, thanks to our company outing? Whatever the reason is, today is really a light day for me. Too light that aside from blogging and chatting during breaks, I had time to indulge on my online guilty pleasures... you know, checking out juicy websites.

1. Brian Gorell Blog - I've been following this blog on and off, but it's just today that I noticed that when you try to access the blog, IE suddenly gives this warning sign that IE cannot find the site and operation is aborted. Hmm... what happened eh? I usually access the site in my phone whenever I stay in our balcony. Oh well, I remembered one comment that suggested downloading the Mozilla Firefox browser in order to open the website. Hahaha.

2. Chikatime.Com - Hmmm... Usually there's always some juicy stuff here but the last post was about Aurora Montano, one of the targets of Brian's blog. Could it be that the two instances are connected? Gash, keep on guessing noh?

3. BryanBoy - Whew... still alive and kicking. Nice to know from this site that Marc by Marc Jacobs store is already open. I would definitely take a trip going there. Hopefully I won't see anything, so I won't buy anything. Duh. Hahaha.

The Not So Guilty Ones...

4. Chuvaness - not really juicy compared to the others, but equally and sometimes even more interesting.

5. TheBagHag - I'm stopping myself from getting green with envy. She has a new Lagon Birkin Bag, among other Hermes things. The pictures of meals she had in her recent trips were very enticing. Wow. Gonna make me some at home.

Apr 24, 2008

5 Things I Want My Kids To Know Before They Grow Up

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ConCon tagged me!

List the 5 things you want your kids to know before they grow up.

Hmm... should I be serious with my answers? Oh well, here are my answers:

1. Know the 10 Commandments and the 7 Beatitudes. You know, be a good Christian, be a good human being.
2. The Golden Rule by Confucius
3. Love others as I have loved you - Jesus Christ
4. Celebrate life and constantly look for the joy and goodness in living always.
5. Do everything in moderation.


Here are my shallow answers (sorry I can't help it):

1. Learn to dress well, have proper hygiene and body care. No harm in starting young!
2. When you eat, focus on eating. Savor your food. One rason why I don't believe in lunch meetings. That's disrespect for the food you are having.
3. Don't be a drama queen like Mama (me).
4. Know how to cook. Sinigang, Pasta
5. Master 1 alcoholic drink and stick to it, so you won't get drunk. You know what things happen whenever one does!

I'm tagging you guys: Jen B., Jen S., Olivia, Melissa, Nikki, Peachy, Autumn

Apr 23, 2008

Made For Walking?

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For so many days I have been stressed here at the office, mainly because of my seemingly unending discussions with my Boss regarding my "resignation."

Today, I took a step back and went on with my normal working day... Working my ass off while checking out cool sites in between as my form of "time-out."

Did my eyes widen like golf balls upon seeing these boots featured by Chuvaness.

I LIKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just wished though that I have £395. These Chloe boots are really smashing. Great with leggings, mini skirts, and shorts. Gash I can imagine myself in those boots.

Ok, back to surfing. Hahahaha.

Apr 22, 2008

Take 3!!! Whew!

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Much better result... This is actually not the third try, probably the tenth already. Hahahahaha.

Oh well, it may be comforting though that our little angel has a semblance of me.

MyHeritage: Look-alike Meter - Family tree outline - Geneology

Take 2

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Pineda Look-alike Meter

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Photobucket Tag

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I've been tagged by Cheche, one of my blogger friends since I started doing my wedding preps.

Here’s how it works:

1. Go to PhotoBucket
2. Type in your answer to the question in the “search” box.
3. Use only the first page.
4. Insert the picture into your Blog

no words - just express your answers through the pictures!!
enjoy!!

1) What is your Relationship Status?
married

2) What is your current mood?

Uncertain

3) Who is your Favorite Band / Artist?

the corrs

4) What is your Favorite Movie?

Under the Tuscan Sun

5) What kind of pet do you have?

the Husband

HARHARHARHAR!!!

6) Where do you live?

Sycamore Tower - Facade

7) Where do you work?

manning

Bulles shipping

8) What do you look like?

slender

9) What do you drive?

The Civic

10) What did you do last night?

seafood


11) What is your Favorite TV Show?

csi

12) Describe yourself:

Carefree

13) What are you doing today?

blogging

14) What is your name?

Vanessa

15) What is your favorite candy?


I'm not really fond of candies but.... Does this count??? Jake Cuenca

Hahahaha!

Thanks Che for tagging me. My featured friends are:

1. Jen B. - really curious what this witty woman would answer!
2. Olivia - doubly curious!
3. Melissa - the Mom with twins. :P

And all you others who want to answer this fun tag!

Apr 18, 2008

Decision Time...

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Today is the day for me to decide whether I should take the opportunity being offered to me by another company, or to just stay in my present good ol' one. My husband and I have talked about it, and I really sense that he's uneasy about me taking the new job. All he kept on saying was "Ok, I'll say yes, but YOU HAVE TO MAKE SURE YOU'LL HAVE TIME FOR US." Somewhat unfair clause right? I mean, of course there will be times when I would probably work a little longer, but I'm sure there will be also days when I'm oh so free. Besides, what is his idea of "TIME FOR US?"

Gash, these are the times when you wish you're single, thus making aggressive moves is just solely your discretion. Now, I have to consider sooo many other factors.

Anyway, I am still very uncertain. I don't know why it feels uncomfortable now. A couple of days ago i was dead-set in taking this new adventure. But now, I'm not so sure. Admittedly, talking to Enrique and my Boss has opened my eyes to some other aspects involved when I choose to take the demanding-but-high-paying-offer. The points they raised made me think twice, really.

I really just hope that before this day ends, a sign will be given to me, on whether to say DEAL or NO DEAL.

Apr 16, 2008

Sad Momma

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*Sigh*

For some reason my little angel has become attached to someone, not me. You see, she used to have her nanny, but the nanny left just recently. So at home, it's just our helper N, Eanna, and I. For four days now I have noticed that eversince her nanny left, her need for N grew. She cries whenever N leaves the room, or when she hears her say "bye." Of course, N would pick her up from me, and I couldn't say No because Eanna's arms are opened wide, like she wanted to say "take me, take me."

Eanna was never like this to her Nanny. She was never like this to me. She always enjoyed playing with me, always enjoyed me cuddling her, kissing her, embracing her, carrying her. Now, it's as if she doesn't want me to be around. I really feel sad about this.

It's as if I'm such a bad Mom who's never there, so she looked for comfort from another person. Today, I felt really hurt when I tried to bath her and she just kept crying. The only time she stopped was when N went inside the bathroom to watch her. We used to enjoy this bonding moment. She used to laugh a lot and play with me while I bathe her.

Can I cry now?

I really hope this is just a phase and that sooner or later Eanna will "go back" to me again and enjoy being with me more than being with anybody else.

*Sigh*

Apr 14, 2008

Summer Lunch

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Last saturday I was in the mood to cook something special, so I made one of my all-time favorites... Linguini Vongole.
















RECIPE: Linguini Vongole

Ingredients:
Linguini pasta
Manila Clams
Clam Juice ( just a little)
Lotsa garlic
Chili Flakes (amount depends on your taste)
Olive Oil
Flat leaf parsley
Dry white wine (or any white wine you have)
Cracked Black Pepper
Optional: Scallops (I added this in mine!)

Heat pan, then add olive oil. Sautee chopped garlic and chili flakes. Add clams and scallops. Add a little clam juice, then white wine. Cook until clams are open; discard any that didn't. Add parsley and black pepper. Stir in the pasta. Transfer to a plate and sprinkle some more parsley. Serve hot with baguette and a glass of wine. :D

I finished the whole thing, gash I'm such a big eater. Hope you like this simple recipe!

Apr 11, 2008

Confused

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One of the hardest things to say when talking to your boss is when you tell him that there is an offer from another company that you are seriously considering. Well, at least in my case, I had a hard time telling my boss about this offer I received. I made it clear though that I was surprised as well when I received that call, and I wasn't applying to other companies. I could tell from his facial expression that it wasn't really ok for me to leave, if ever. He honestly told me that his advice of course is biased, because he wants me to stay with the team.

After our long talk, I was left confused. I have grown to like this company, but the offer of the other (compensation and opportuunity) is not something that I could easily dismiss. It really is an appealing offer. However there are so many factors I need to consider - the people I would be dealing with, the amount of pressure and time I would devote to this new job with bigger responsibilities, etc., that in the end would tell me whether it really is worth getting into.

Plus there's the Enrique factor. Although he has a disclaimer "I support you all the way and whatever decision you make," he voiced out his concerns such as me possibily having no time for both of them, as well as "you don't have to work that hard because I can support our family" drama.

Part of me is really interested to take this opportunity, but a large part of me says otherwise...

Help me Lord.

Apr 10, 2008

My Lavender Fields

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Wow, I just realized that this blog is already 4 years old. I never thought that I would keep a blog this long. Actually, I had previous blogs, or what they used to call "online journals" prior to this blog, but for some reason, updating them didn't quite appeal to me. Then when I made this blog, there were so many things that can be done that blogging became more of one way to unwind, to release whatever feelings I had and all. This blog has been with me through thick and thin, my ups and downs, my best and worst. Most importantly, it witnessed how my relationship with Enrique started and bloomed.

In boring days, I used this blog to keep me busy - posting test results and revamping the blog's looks. In hectic days, I used it to rant and vent out my frustrations.

Truly, this blog is my very own lavender fields, fields where I can relax and be myself. A place where I can reflect on my dreams, my hopes, my fears, my life.

Wait a minute... Why am I being sentimental anyway... Uhm... I don't know. Or maybe I do know, I just don't know how to put it into words.

Apr 9, 2008

Babe in a Suit, 7th Month

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She's too cute... Hahahaha! I can't wait till I first dip her into the pool. Summer, we are oh so ready for you!



Anyway, we celebrated Eanna's 7th month last night. I was so happy that when I came home from work, she was waiting for me at the lobby. What a way to take out my exhaustion! Ok, going back to her celebration, it was just a simple one; we had beef stew, strawberries, cheese, and double dutch cake.



She was really soooo lively and kept on standing up and all. Very very active baby.

Cebu Trip

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Finally! Here are my updates on my recent trips.

My trip to Cebu was due to the naming ceremony and delivery of our company’s vessel, which was built in a Japanese shipyard in Cebu. We stayed in Shangri-La Mactan for 3 days, and frankly I must say that it was a good stay there. We had a pre-naming dinner the night before the actually occasion, and I was one of the emcee’s for the night. I was very nervous, as it was a long time ago since I last did this. In the end, it turned out to be ok, and I managed to inject some light remarks that broke the formality of the event. Hahaha, sorry I couldn’t resist. Food was good, I loved the cocktails and the sit-down dinner.

The next day, we had an early start, because the trip to the shipyard was 3 hours. Gash, did my back ache and all. Hehehe. The event was a tearful one for me (us), partly because of the sentimental songs being played while all the officer and crew of the vessel waved their hands to bid us (and their families) goodbye. I mean, who wouldn’t drop a tear or two with this scenery, plus the song “I am sailing” filling your ears.





I also envisioned Enrique wearing the Captain’s suit, bidding me goodbye. Geesh, please I don’t want to experience this, let me just go with the vessel. And of course, I felt a bit sad, because of the thought of possibly leaving the company. More about that later.

That afternoon, we had some free time to swim, so I donned my new swimsuit and headed towards the beach. It was marvelous, swimming together with the fishes. Hahaha.



Boy we really had fun, with one of our officemates snapping pictures of us. Then we headed to the pool area. Water was warm, and it was relaxing after a tiring day. We then had dinner at Tides. Food was really good, though I got disappointed because there were no fresh oysters. Dang. It’s expensive though, as the price is the same as hotel buffet prices back in Manila. I enjoyed the food a lot though, and since it’s “free” I enjoyed it even more. Hehehehe.

I met up with my friends M and B for an after-dinner thing. I ordered just a glass of wine (no desserts, thank you), and resisted to get another one. I’m having another early start the next day, you know. We talked about a lot of stuff, and it was really good that I had time to meet them.

The next day, selected personnel (including myself) went to SOS Villages Cebu to visit the place as well as to give toys to the children who are currently being provided shelter (and livelihood as well) by the organization. The visit was heartwarming (I cried again) because the kids, from the young ones to the tweens, as well as their “mothers,” presented a lot of song and dance numbers and poetry recitals.





The last presentation was the most touching part, because the boys presented what I call the “white gloves” presentation. You know, using and moving their hands to convey messages, to the tune of “The Prayer.” It wouldn’t have been presented best at night, but of course this was not possible at the moment. But boy, was I tearful especially when they have formed “We Love You” and “Thank You.” I am such a cry-baby. Hahaha.

After the visit, we had lunch again at Tides before we packed out bags and left for Manila. Of course, I had another full meal. I totally loved the baked fish with lemon butter sauce. The fish was superb, nicely cooked.







In the airport we had a 30-minute foot massage by the blind, and the one who massaged me was very good… and artistic. His body movements while massaging my feet are like the body movements of a pianist. Hahaha.

The flight turned out to be quite ok, far from what we have experienced when we were en route to Cebu. All of us were really nervous at first, but relaxed a bit when it seemed that the flight was pleasant, with some mild shakes here and there.

My first stop upon reaching home was in Eanna’s room. She looked so serene while sleeping. I kept on kissing her but she didn’t wake up. What a lovely angel I have.

Anyway, that’s what happened in Cebu. Next update would be my Singapore trip. :D

Apr 7, 2008

Missing Eanna

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It's been days since the last time I am with my baby girl (5 days to be exact), and I am sorely missing my little angel. I know, I know, before I left yesterday I got to see, kiss, hug, and play with her, but it was really just a short time. Good thing I'm now on my way back to Manila. I hope she's still awake when I get back, beause I really really want to play with her for even just a short while before she sleeps. You know, see her smile and all.

I'm now here in the boarding area, and fortunately there's free internet access. I immediatley checked out my baby's pictures (my camera pics aren't enough, really), and my longing to be with her grew even stronger. I want to go home now!!! Fast!!! *Sigh*

Anyway, I will be posting entries on my trips. They were fun, but of courseit would've been better if my husband and my angel are both with me. But for now, I guess I'm by myself for a ouple of hours. Eanna, wait for me. I'm coming home real soon... *Sigh*

Apr 2, 2008

Hello Cebu!

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Tomorrow I am off to Cebu for a business trip, and I’m so excited because it will be the first time I would be attending a naming ceremony of a vessel. How cool is that? Harharhar.

Anyway, I am going to the mall later to buy me some bathing suits. Yep, I need one because my last piece (2-piece actually) got worn out. Poor bikini had to go through a lot of stretching to accommodate my pregnant body. Hehe. Anyway, here are the some silhouettes I am opting for this summer.

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(Pics from NeimanMarcus.com)

I know, I know. Gone are the days when I can strut my stuff with a teeny weeny bikini. I still have this fine “linea negra” caused by my pregnancy, and I am quite shy for it to be seen. Well, if you look at it, it kinda points to “down there” hahaha. And yeah, triangle bikinis for me are so 2004. since that time I gained 20 lbs more or less. Don’t get me wrong, people still think I’m still thin, but heck, my belly is still bulging, and I don’t think it would ever go away. But hey, the styles above are nice anyway, right?

I also saw these sandals by Ipanema.

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I’m kinda hesitant to get me one, but if I’m in the mood to shop later, then I would! :P

Gash, I hope I can look as good as this when I travel...

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but... I WISH! :P

Apr 1, 2008

Deal or No Deal

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I had a sleepless night last night. I kept on thinking what developments had transpired yesterday, and up until now my mind is still very confused. You see, yesterday i have received a phone call from another company, asking me to join them. IMMEDIATELY. I was a little rattled because first I wasn't really looking for a new job. It just so happened that my good friend and our principal sponsor needed a replacement (he is moving to another company, and I think another country!) and he has given my name (among others) and contact number to their President. Apparently they got interest in me (my friend has given them my short background), so they called me for some initial talks. The President asked for my CV, and so I sent them mine. After a couple of minutes, he called again and confirmed they want me for the job.

Now I am really confused. I have been in my company for more than 2 years now, and though stressful as it is, I am enjoying my current job. The company is very stable, with a little above average when it comes to compensation and benefits.

The new company on the other hand, though has been in the industry for quite a while, has only started its operations here for 1 year. Position offered is almost the same as my current postion, plus more. Basically they need someone to head their operations here in Manila. from there I would be trained and groomed for further career advancement. Salary-wise, my yearly net income would be the same as my yearly gross income in my current company.

Sounds good, noh?

But of course, I am still a bit hesitant. I enjoy working with my colleagues here. My boss is very supportive and i have learned a lot from him. The company itself is a good company.

I asked Dear Hubby what he thinks, and he gave me his honest answer. He's proud of me, but I should also consider the time I would allot to our family. That it shouldn't rob me of my time with them. Honestly, he said that he is also earning and he can support the family even without me working that much. But it is still up to me, because he doesn't want me to decide on something I don't want. He will fully support me in whatever decision I would make.

I'm in the office right now, getting teary-eyed.

Gash, I don't know what to do.