I wanted to sleep longer today because today is the start of my leave from work, but probably habits don't die that easily so here I am wide awake. My plans today is just for me to relax and forget about the wedding preps, like what my coord told me last night.
Perhaps she has sensed that both Enrique and I are stressed already from all the preparations, and she was 100% correct. Much as I wanted to not think about the load of things to do and ignore the stress signals (hey, I always tell myself that stress is all in the mind), I couldn't help but admit that eversince Enrique came last October and went full speed ahead with our wedding preparations, I was getting really stressed out, even to the point that the idea of our wedding coming into fruition didn't excite me at all. What made things worse was that my work has been eating up probably half of my brain.
Maybe I can call this period a really big accomplishment for me, juggling work and at the same time having full control over the wedding as well as house preparations. This period might even be considered a sneak preview of how my new life would be (less stress I hope and pray).
Am I ready for it?
Maybe yes, maybe no. I really don't know. But you see, at the end of the day, I keep on evaluating whether or not I am making the right decision of entering this so-called "magulong mundo ng pag-aasawa" and only one thing is really clear: I love Enrique and I want to be with him and I want to start a family with him. That no matter how much stress and arguments (huge, honestly) we have experienced, deep in my heart I have faith and hope that we will get through all these together. Most of all, I believe in the love that is between us.
So, am I excited with our wedding day?
Not really...
If I compare it with my excitement and anticipation over our new life together.
Perhaps she has sensed that both Enrique and I are stressed already from all the preparations, and she was 100% correct. Much as I wanted to not think about the load of things to do and ignore the stress signals (hey, I always tell myself that stress is all in the mind), I couldn't help but admit that eversince Enrique came last October and went full speed ahead with our wedding preparations, I was getting really stressed out, even to the point that the idea of our wedding coming into fruition didn't excite me at all. What made things worse was that my work has been eating up probably half of my brain.
Maybe I can call this period a really big accomplishment for me, juggling work and at the same time having full control over the wedding as well as house preparations. This period might even be considered a sneak preview of how my new life would be (less stress I hope and pray).
Am I ready for it?
Maybe yes, maybe no. I really don't know. But you see, at the end of the day, I keep on evaluating whether or not I am making the right decision of entering this so-called "magulong mundo ng pag-aasawa" and only one thing is really clear: I love Enrique and I want to be with him and I want to start a family with him. That no matter how much stress and arguments (huge, honestly) we have experienced, deep in my heart I have faith and hope that we will get through all these together. Most of all, I believe in the love that is between us.
So, am I excited with our wedding day?
Not really...
If I compare it with my excitement and anticipation over our new life together.
