I've been listening to this song of Martin Nievera for years, yet it is just now that I have come to appreciate the lyrics of the song....The Promise of LoveI kneel beside you here todayI kneel beside you and I prayThat it's you, its only youWho will share my tomorrows and yesterdays I searched a lifetime and found youA bridge to forever I share with youOpen your heart and let me inAs I give you this...
Nov 17, 2004
Nov 12, 2004
Dazed and Confused
I miss Enrique.I don't know why my feelings are so strong for this guy, I don't know why I am missing him this much. And I am not sure if I have the right reasons to do so.It is a fact that we didn't really get to know each other before he left (and this is a huge understatement) and that we only got to "know" each other through millions of text and hours of phonecalls (yes, those phone bills that...
Nov 9, 2004
Of Novels and Pictures
I just received a 14-page letter (more like a novel, really!) from my beloved Enrique, along with 3 of his pictures onboard. And I missed him all the more.I just think that January is around the corner. I can't wait to see him. In the meantime, I will just read again his message and stare at his pictures.......
Oct 28, 2004
Dream to Sleep
I was just browsing through all my personal files when I came across a very old poem that I have made. Entitled "Dream To Sleep," I can hardly remember what made me write this poem. Probably this was the time when my Spinsterhood days were the times when I was still being idealistic and looking for Mr. Right was highly romanticized by me.DREAM TO SLEEPAnd my vision blurs, head spiralling upInto a...
Oct 22, 2004
The "ME" Phenomenon
One afternoon while having a conference chat with my friends, we somehow got into a discussion on the Filipino "Me" phenomenon. This is a purely-text message (and, gasp, instant messaging!) phenom, which involves using the pronoun "me" in exchange of the grammatically correct "ako." I can understand that sometimes we speak Taglish. I can understand the deletion of letters or using numbers 2 and 8...
Oct 9, 2004
No Title, Just Read on...
I am now thousands of feet above the ground as I plane my way back to Manila, and I am in a somewhat mellow mood. I have been longing to go home for quite some time now, yet as I near my home country, I couldn't help but be sad because much as I don't want to admit it, I have become accustomed to the surroundings of Malaysia. Sure, I went to the doctor because my stomach could no longer take in Asian...
Sep 27, 2004
BLACKOUT!
I am now back here in KL, after one week in Manila. This time around, I am staying here for 3 weeks. The last week, I attended various conferences and meetings, and this week is more on getting accustomed to my new job as the market analyst of the company. Next week I will be back with our special project (the one that requires me to go here in KL every other week!) which will probably be finalized...
Sep 9, 2004
Full Speed Ahead!
After only a week's stay in the Philippines, I am back here again in Kuala Lumpur for a whole-week meeting with our company president regarding our management system project - specifically the Corporate Manual section. I joke around that maybe Crown Princess Hotel should a have a dedicated room for me since I go here almost every other week since July/August.But anyway, I have done so much progress...
Aug 25, 2004
Far and Away
Ok, not really that far, since I am just here in Kuala Lumpur for a couple of days. But I am beginning to feel homesick, something which rarely happens to me.The first sign of homesickness was that I missed the food. I missed the green mango and tomato salad served every dinner time at home. I missed using my hands and diving into the food without thinking that somebody might think I'm a barbarian....
Aug 19, 2004
And She Will be Loved (Part II)
Just when I told myself that I will be Enrique-less for the time being (in order to "become myself" and be independent emotionally), I received a satellite phone call from him. And boy, he really knows how to make this girl's day...A little background... Last night I sent him a text message that I prayed to God that I will fully heal (from my past) so that I can love him with all my heart. He didn't...
FIGHT MODE!
The past few days have been a roller coaster ride for me, and I realize that I have to do something about this. The ever-carefree Vanessa cannot possibly be so glum for 10 days in a row. So I wake up today and don this "Fight mode." No Enriques, no family issues, no ex-factors, no crying at night. Just pure unadulterated Vanessa. I know, I know. I sound a little self-centered and it seems as if the...
Aug 18, 2004
Girl Interrupted
I had the luxury of reading again my past entries, and I was pretty surprised on how erratic my mood swings were. It made me realize that the past week has been a roller-coaster for me, whether I have "blogged it" or not.One minute I am so up there, the next minute I am down in the dumps. A confused mind and heart, these are what I have right now. Is this part of being in the mid-20’s? Is this an...
Aug 16, 2004
The Ex-factor
There are days when I am way up high above Cloud 9, where I couldn't be anything but be in love. Those days are as rosy as the picture of the roses Enrique sent me (which is now my desktop wallpaper). And then there are days when I don't feel like being in love. This is one of those days.It all started...
Aug 13, 2004
From P900 to P4get it!
To Heck with Globe!Last night was probably the most irritating night of my life. After a week of thinking over whether to get the platinum plan of Globe Telecom, some serious thought on commitment stiff, and whether to get a P900 or a K700i, I finally decided to get on with it. Excitement turned to disappointment and anger when the frigging company declined my application! The customer service woman...
Aug 11, 2004
Commitophobia
Ever since I realized the wonderful effects of romance in one's life, I have been pining over my Prince Charming. Just like what Snow White kept on singing by the well, "Someday my Prince will come." Whenever I pray to God, I never wished for success and material things as much as I wished for somebody to be there to be with, for me to love, and to love me. For the past years I have been in and out...
Aug 9, 2004
The Lost Art of Mechado-making
Today was a blah day. I was sick yesterday and I had no choice but to rest the whole day today. Eat, lie down, watch TV, eat, rest in bed, sleep, watch TV. The only redeeming factor was that my ever thoughtful Enrique called me up to check on me.And then came my depression attack. Over dinner, while just staring at the food I was about to eat, it just dawned on me that I do not cook at all. Sure,...
Aug 5, 2004
And She Will Be Loved...
Lately, life seems to be much brighter, rosier, and greener for this spinster (soon to be not!).Love is finally blooming again, although I am still having a hard time adjusting to the style of Enrique, my man of the moment (and I certainly hope my man forever!). He is way too sweet, thoughtful, and...
Jul 26, 2004
The Dependent Brat
Well well, it's been really a while since I last posted here, I guess I'm not much of a blogger. But I'll try to keep up!Here are the results of the Personality Disorder test... and my results are kinda true!DisorderRatingParanoid:LowSchizoid:LowSchizotypal:ModerateAntisocial:LowBorderline:LowHistrionic:ModerateNarcissistic:ModerateAvoidant:LowDependent:HighObsessive-Compulsive:Low-- Personality Disorder...
Jun 12, 2004
The Oslo Experience
Hallo Norge! Hallo Vikinger!Those were the first sentences I uttered upon arrival in Oslo. This was the first trip I had in Europe, and two weeks prior to my trip, I had been very excited even if my main purpose was business-related. I remembered the first time I was informed that I will go to Norway....
May 27, 2004
Another MC Job for Me!
I just finished laying-out the pictures taken during our 2nd Family Fun Day (an office affair) for our reception area and I remembered all those wonderful and fun moments with our crew and their families! I know it was two weeks ago (May 15 to be exact) but I remembered all the fun and excitement we...
May 26, 2004
Old Maid... at 20+?
Lately I have professed that I am single by choice, and I didn't have any qualms about it until the time when parents of my brother's basketball team decided to celebrate the team's perfect sweep to the championship at a bar-grill. When my brothers asked if they could go with us, my dad said, "Only parents are going." When my brother eyed me quizzically, my dad added, "Parents and old-maids." Huh?...
Mar 4, 2004
The Quarterlife Crisis Blues
Am I taking care of myself properly? Am I eating the right kind of food? Do I exercise as often as needed? Or do I really need to exercise?For singles: is it by choice or circumstantial? If by choice, why? If circumstantial, will I ever meet someone who I can be committed to? For those in a relationship: Am I with the right person? When do I marry? Or do I have to marry him/her?Am I growing up too...
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