Greatest Fear

There are only two things that are certain... change and death.

Though I still feel queazy sometimes about the thought of change, drastic change that it, I am ok about it. My greatest fear however is the second one that is certain in life... death.

Sorry for being morbid, but when my panic attack (or worse, emo mode) strikes, thoughts about death is always in the agenda. My death, death of my family members, death of relatives, friends. You name it, I think about those in my depression moods. What is more worrisome is the way death happens... accident, man-made, or dreaded diseases (aside from cancer, check out other dreaded diseases info, like mesothelioma life expectancy).

Am I abnormal or too much of a looney to think about these things? I know, I know I shouldn't worry about this everyday for fear that too much thoughts about this may actually realize it. I should focus more on the positive so that positive things happen and come to me (remember, The Secret?). Times are hard though and sometimes you just have to be prepared.

Oh well.

It's quite obvious that I'm on panic attack mode, hahaha. Wow, at least I still get to laugh at myself. Such a looney, I tell you. Hahaha.