Ghosts of The Past

Last night I had coffee with my former officemate from my first employer. It was a pleasant surprise that he sent me a text message early that day, given that prior to him sending me one, I was thinking about my former company and how my good ol’ friends were.

Anyway, it was a really nice meet-up. We talked about our current disposition in life (him married, yet on the rocks, me engaged to be married), work stuff, and of course, my past…

There were so many things that happened to me, pleasant and unpleasant, back then. Some proved to be very vital and good decisions, and a few that still haunted me up until yesterday.

Maybe that chance coffee break me and my friend had was one of God’s way of telling me to finally let go of the ghosts of my past that kept on haunting me. I have always thought that all misfortunes that happened to me afterwards were some sort of punishments that I deserved, because of the wrongs that I did. Maybe yesterday was God’s way of telling me that in those times He has never forsaken me, but I instead interpreted my misfortunes the wrong way.

Last night I was finally enlightened, especially when my friend told me that all the decisions and actions I took, which I thought were really bad decisions, were actually good decisions at that time. I was young and vulnerable and immature back then. Today, I’m still relatively young, quite confident, and… immature still (Enrique and I had that same thought when we talked early this morning about what transpired last night, hahaha).

This comment by my friend made me realize that I had to accept all that has happened to me, learn from my experiences, and let go. I told my friend that all the experiences I had made me all the more appreciate things, like the concept of marriage and love between husband and wife. Our conversation made me appreciate all the more the kind of love Enrique gives me. This morning I poured my heart out to Enrique, and told him how blessed I feel simply because he loves me.

Overall, it was really very enlightening to talk to my friend again. At least we have seen how far we have gone and achieved, both professionally and personally.