Feeling Lonely

We had a blast last night celebrating Eanna's birthday. I tried not to think about it, but still, I cannot help but wished that my dearest husband was with us. I'm sure he would have been very happy and proud of his little daughter. Now I finally had to face the reality (I thought I did before, but half heartedly I guess) that there will be very special occasions when hubby will not be here to celebrate with us. I was happy that my family was with us to celebrate, but I couldn't stop this aching feeling that it wasn't as complete as it should be. Now I don't know how long before we would finally say that it's about time for dear E to stop sailing and just work here. Maybe right now I should start looking into small business opportunities and save money in order to start our own business. Times are hard right now, and maybe I really should re-think my spending habits and lead a simpler lifestyle.

For now, I guess, we have to sacrifice a bit in order to have a better future for our little family.