A Year Older Soon

I'm turning a year older really soon, and I don't know, for some reason, I do feel old. Maybe it's because of me still on emo-mode and that I am missing my husband, but that's beside the point. I feel old. Am I?

Looks-wise, I know I look my age (at least, with or without the use of prevera), and physique wise even if I bitch about me losing weight, I know that I still look ok. Just need toning and all Now as to the mental aspect. Well, I am mental. Harharhar. Kidding aside, I feel that I can still do more to care for my mental being. Facebooking and games do not count in enriching my brain so maybe I should start reading books again. Spiritually... hmm.. I still feel I want to be more connected to God. I do pray, but the depression bug bites me often that sometimes I "lose faith." Maybe I should make a ritual too on prayer and meditation. Do some social work too, perhaps? I know, I know, I keep on planning my life but too lazy to actually act. Gash, I really think I am hit hard by Sloth, the sin. *Sigh*


Hahaha. This is the emo-mode Van talking, I know. I know that on my birthday I will be as happy as ever, with the lightest of moods, and also will feel younger. Maybe it really is a ritual for me to agonize over the B-day days before then end up merry and grateful after.