Lately, my strategy in order to be "not sad" about the whole husband-is-away thing is by keeping myself busy, distracted by things (e.g. surf the net for home designs, fashion, etc...), and by not thinking about him (whenever I do, I get sad and get teary-eyed... not good). For the past years kasi, I mope at night and all which I know for sure makes the situation worse.
But when I realize that I haven't thought of him throughout the day, I feel so guilty naman. It's as if I'm taking him out of my life and moving along "without him". Ngik.
Maybe if I overdo this "don't think about him" strategy, is it possible that this may cause me to "un-love" him? I hope not naman noh.
*Sigh*
3 months to go...
Feeling Guilty
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