The Boring Me?

Last night before I went home, I read again some of my very first posts in my blog and I was fascinated by the topics that I have written when I was 26 and decidedly single (hahaha do I have to stress the words decided and single? haha). From the Quarterlife Crisis blues to the question of becoming an old maid, there was so much uncertainty in me during those times. And it was fun...

Don't get me wrong, I love my life right now. However, there are times when I feel that I'm somewhat different now. Example, lately my blog topics have been blah topics made worse by blah writing (for me at least). There seems to be nothing much and nothing fun to write about. Is my life getting boring? Did I stop pursuing la joie de vivre? Does stability result in boredom?

Or is it that I am focusing too much on my problems and work, instead of seeing the world the way I see it before?

I have once read The Little Prince, and it mentioned something about the difference between grown-ups and children. This must have been a big impact on me because to see the world in the eyes of the child - awe, wonder, excitement, carefree, joy, hope - has been my attitude, up until lately (well that's how I feel, really). Or am I just worrying too much? But then again, the fact that I am worrying too much means something too.

Am I growing old?

Don't get me wrong, I do not have the Peter Pan mentality (the extreme one of not wanting to growing up). It's just that lately I have been very tired of things and I don't see and feel pleasure in those I have seen and felt pleasure before. Even (and most especially) in food (gasp!). I used to feel the richness, sniff the aroma, experience the moment of eating well. Now, I just eat.

Maybe I need to take time out from all my fears, problems, and thoughts about work (more than I should), and reflect why I have strayed from the "old me." I should probably read again all those books I have loved and cherished in order for me to get grounded yet again.

They say that life is what happens while you are busy. Heck, I don't want to miss the boat. I hope I haven't yet.