Weekend Blues

Last weekend wasn't really that great for me, as I spent almost the whole time in my bed, watching TV, flipping thru magazines, and moping around...

Pressure at Work
I'm not really that stressed at work, but sometimes certain people just make things difficult, judge you and treat you unfairly (without haven't meeting me yet!). I really wanted to lash out on those creeps but I just talked to my boss about it. He told me not to mind the comments those people have said to other people, and that in this business it really is like this. I told him that I don't expect everyone to like me, but at least respect me if not for the position I am in, but simply because I am a person. I don't really bring work at home, but this time, those nasty comments shot straight into my heart. :-(

Missing Enrique
This is a constant downer for me. Every weekend is a bit of a torture because I can't help but wish Enrique is by my side. *Sigh* I told him about the "situation at work," and he was really upset, to the point that he had self-pity.... He felt so useless because supposedly I shouldn't work anymore (according to him), and now my work is giving me these kinds of problems and issues. *Sigh* It was also our 23rd month-sary last Friday, and of course, the loneliness set it.

Loss of Wisdom
Finally... two of my last wisdom teeth were taken out. The procedures and after-effects didn't hurt that much and that long, but still, it added to my depression....

The Reluctant Mom-to-Be
I don't know, for some reason I have thought of this, even though I am not yet a mom-to-be! Enrique and I have been thinking about whether to have a baby immediately OR spend some more time by ourselves. We have agreed that we wanted to have a baby as soon as possible. But over the weekend, as depression attacked me again, I felt that I wanted Enrique "for myself" first. Most of the time I felt unloved (sob sob sob) and so I thought that I would want to be "bab-ied" first by Enrique. To make things worse, my nephew was a little difficult over the weekend (due to tonsilitis?), causing a little stress to my sister, and I was thinking... can I handle this alone? I felt even more depressed.

Then of course, the monthly red flag came in...

Oh well... I hope that this week will be better than the weekend.