Ironing Out The Kinks

Last weekend was an emotionally-packed one, with Enrique and I ending up in tears, as we resolved our own concerns, disappointments, and issues.

It's a wake-up call for me, in a sense that I should exert more effort in making him feel that he has my full attention. I at first told him that he was being unfair (he felt bad that I'm too busy at work), but while we were talking, I fully understood him. It was also another reminder for me that before I do or say something, I have to consider what he would feel about it.

On his side, his standard for "showing affection and giving attention" was too high for me. I know that all his attention is mine, and he just expected that I will give him the same. This was the first time I heard him cry so hard.

I hope that our talk yesterday will help ease the gap between us. This is probably part of adjusting and accepting each other as we are. I really love him, and I know that he loves me so much. Sometimes I feel like giving up, and I feel too that he is running out of patience with me, but in the end, we just can't let go... we want to be together... we choose to be together.