First Aid Training

This morning our whole office had our first aid training, as part of our Basic Safety and Firefighting Training. It was a blast! The training wasn't dragging, and all of us had to do the CPR on a dummy....

The drill started with us individually tapping the dummy and asked the dummy if he is ok. When it was my turn, I said... "Brandon my love, are you ok?" People started laughing. Hehehe. Later on they remarked, you should have done well or else Superman dies. Hahaha!

Detecting if the "victim" is breathing

Doing a heart compression
Tomorrow we will go to Consolidated Training Center in Cavite to have our firefighting course. Actually, I took up this course when I was connected to my previous company last 2002. At least now this will serve as my refresher on this course.

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It's Just... A Little Crush....

My oh my... I feel like a highschool teener, totally infatuated with a celebrity.

I've been thinking of Brandon Routh the whole day!!!

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New Object of My Affection

Can you read my mind?

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The Ugly Duckling

Since I don’t know when, I have been considered the ugly duckling of my family, well at least compared to my mother and sister. My hair is too stringy, my nose is too flat, my eyes are too small, etc... Often times I have been kidded by them that I am such a sloppy dresser, or that I’m getting too flabby (for their taste) and all. And though I don’t mind and consider it a fact, sometimes I do get annoyed when people just tell me… “Oh, your mom and your sister are prettier than you.” I don’t have to be reminded by that, I know that already!

My Uncle, however, made my day the other day when he said that every time he sees me, I grow more beautiful. I mean, nowadays, Enrique and his mom are the only ones who tell me that I’m beautiful. Vanity aside, it’s quite pleasant to hear once in a while compliments such as those. People say that what matters is the beauty within, not the physical beauty. I believe in this of course. But then again, I also think people wouldn’t also mind being complimented on their physical attributes!

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Pain of Having Braces

Last Saturday, I went again to the orthodontist to finally put on braces on my lower teeth. Putting them on wasn't painful, it was after a while when the pain started setting in. And of course, I'm allergic to NSAID's (non-steroidal pain relievers). That night all my teeth hurt so much, I wasn't able to eat during dinner! What I did was tell our cook to buy for me some crab and corn soup and also tuna sashimi (two of my comfort food), and I just tried drinking and eating them.

That night I couldn't help but think and ask myself why I had placed myself in this torturous (is that a word?) situation. If the cost weren't that expensive, I would've probably discontinued having braces. But seriously, the total cost left a huge hole in my really shallow pockets. I also couldn't help but think... I should've just bought a really nice bag... Gucci or LV will do. Or perhaps Chloe or Prada. *Sigh*

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Bug-Eyed

Things really do happen for a reason.

Yesterday I wrote about planning to purchase a new pair of shades (after some delay last weekend), and I intended to do so over the weekend. When my dad sent me a text message that he couldn't pick me up and that I had to take a cab, I decided to text my friend Jen what her gimmick was. She replied, saying that she's in Mango because there was a sale.

And boy oh boy.... Good thing I didn't buy the shades last weekend, because when I got to Mango, I saw my shades at 50% off! Woohooo! The downside was of course, being in a sale, you would see other things. Good thing I controlled myself (and also I'm not really a fan of sales, especially Mango's -- too many people!), and after holding a couple more items, I just decided to buy my shades and this nice deconstructed shirt.


Jen told me that I have great control (over sales and shopping), and I just told her that I had to because I promised Enrique that I will only buy "needed" stuff, and that I am saving for a splurge... a bag!

Batignolles Vertical

Well, I'm not really a bag fan, but then I told myself that I just need one long lasting classic number, something expensive enough for me to care for. Those other inexpensive bags I bought in the past, after a couple of usage, nada. I just forget about them.

And so anyway, after a couple of days of being unshaded, I'm back to bug-eyed me. :-P

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Un-Shaded

While on my way to the office, I suddenly thought of the one accessory I have been missing for quite some time now… my bug-eye shades. My latest favorite just got broken about 2 weeks ago, and I was truly saddened by it. Indeed I felt a little bit naked going out without wearing it.

I mean, almost all of us has a signature accessory, and if the Little Prince had his scarf as his signature accessory, mine was my huge shades. I am not a shades collector, but I just make sure that I have at least one pair.

I remembered the first time I bought a high-end branded piece, my very first shades. That was way back in first year in college, when our family went to Hong Kong. My mom and sister went all out in buying really bargain finds. Me? I spent almost all my HK trip allowance on Gucci shades. It was a classic huge framed Jackie-O piece, and the moment I wore them, I felt like a winner.

Well, that was the time when I was a student and I could afford almost everything I wanted. To change status as a working girl made a difference. Suddenly I started being conscious of my spending habits. Good thing i2i came to be, and their shades were nice yet affordable. All in all, I got to buy about 3 shades from i2i, including my last one.

The one thing I regret losing was the brown aviators I bought in H&M when I was in Norway. Those were really nice shades, one might think it was couture shades. I lost them in Changi Airport in Singapore… or was it in the airplane? *Sigh*

Now what’s left is the Chanel brown shades I bought in Malaysia. I like them, but oddly, not enough for me to wear them.



I went to Mango last weekend to check out their shades, and there were two that caught my eye. The first one had a nice fit on me, but they were an old rose kind of pink. Yeck. The second was an earthy greenish bug-eye, but my sister said that it’s too huge for my face. So I didn’t get to buy any.




But then again, all my shades were too huge for me…. Hmm…. Maybe I should go there again. Hopefully this weekend I will not leave the house un-shaded.

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Survival of the Fittest

The past few days have been a rollercoaster ride for me in terms of work, and over the weekend, after much thought (and moping hehehe), I have decided to go back to my old tenet that I should not let work affect me (or at least during the weekend). I told myself that worse things have happened before, and I was able to overcome these trouble spots.

And so Monday came, and I was scheduled to meet with the person concerned (the one who bummed me out). I was a little nervous, wondering what would transpire in our meeting. By a stroke of luck (or misfortune?), the person told me he’ll go to the office the next day instead.

Now it's Tuesday. I was still a bit nervous, but when I finally met up with him face to face, my nervousness was gone. I was fairly impressed with myself for being very cordial and professional and warm, despite the fact that last week I was really ticked off by that person. Everything ended well and amicably so this burden I have been carrying eased out… a bit at least. The person seemed nice and ok to talk to. But of course, looks can sometimes be deceiving, and though I am not fully referring to this person, let's face it. There really are backstabbers that are decent when in front of you.

So, should I quit my job? Nah… It’s not really my character to give up on things. Besides, this is just work. The worst that can happen to me is to get fired.

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Tough Job

Aaaarggghhhh!!!!!

This tough job of mine is slowly driving me nuts!!!! Unplanned developments in the fleet, somewhat unpleasant crew, etc... All are giving me a headache. This job is also eating up my time - not because I stay up late in the office (I still manage to go home at 6 pm), but because even after office hours (as well as during weekends), things may come up that would need my attention. Not to mention that even though I am home already, my mind is still filled with work thoughts - planning and all. *Sigh*

Aside from this, I have no time for wedding preparations, and Enrique and I have argued a lot of times eversince I took this job, about my lack of attention to him, especially now that he's away (he says that I don't text as often as he wishes, etc..).

I like my job. I really do. It's very dynamic, it's not boring, I get to talk to different people, it tests my people and management skills, etc. It really is a challenging job, which I like. But there are times when I ask myself, is it worth it? Is it worth the stress? Stress is even a word that was alien to me until last week.

I have ranted to Enrique about my current disposition, and I felt sorry that I ranted to him too much. Far too much, too much to the point that he told me that as soon as he comes back from Europe, he wants me to resign. Now he feels so useless, that he knows I shouldn't work and all, but he is letting me work. I disagree with him, and that he shouldn't feel useless. It was my choice to get this job even though he wanted me to stop last year.

Part of me wants to quit and take the easier road. Yet a bigger part of me wants to stay. I really like the challenge. And also, what the heck will I do at home?

*Sigh*

Drama, drama, drama...

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Dante' Inferno Test

I was browsing through the net and I have come across this test...

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	High
Level 2 (Lustful)	High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Very Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Moderate
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

Take the Dante's Divine Comedy Inferno Test

Hahaha.... So I am lustful. Hahahaha!

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Weekend Blues

Last weekend wasn't really that great for me, as I spent almost the whole time in my bed, watching TV, flipping thru magazines, and moping around...

Pressure at Work
I'm not really that stressed at work, but sometimes certain people just make things difficult, judge you and treat you unfairly (without haven't meeting me yet!). I really wanted to lash out on those creeps but I just talked to my boss about it. He told me not to mind the comments those people have said to other people, and that in this business it really is like this. I told him that I don't expect everyone to like me, but at least respect me if not for the position I am in, but simply because I am a person. I don't really bring work at home, but this time, those nasty comments shot straight into my heart. :-(

Missing Enrique
This is a constant downer for me. Every weekend is a bit of a torture because I can't help but wish Enrique is by my side. *Sigh* I told him about the "situation at work," and he was really upset, to the point that he had self-pity.... He felt so useless because supposedly I shouldn't work anymore (according to him), and now my work is giving me these kinds of problems and issues. *Sigh* It was also our 23rd month-sary last Friday, and of course, the loneliness set it.

Loss of Wisdom
Finally... two of my last wisdom teeth were taken out. The procedures and after-effects didn't hurt that much and that long, but still, it added to my depression....

The Reluctant Mom-to-Be
I don't know, for some reason I have thought of this, even though I am not yet a mom-to-be! Enrique and I have been thinking about whether to have a baby immediately OR spend some more time by ourselves. We have agreed that we wanted to have a baby as soon as possible. But over the weekend, as depression attacked me again, I felt that I wanted Enrique "for myself" first. Most of the time I felt unloved (sob sob sob) and so I thought that I would want to be "bab-ied" first by Enrique. To make things worse, my nephew was a little difficult over the weekend (due to tonsilitis?), causing a little stress to my sister, and I was thinking... can I handle this alone? I felt even more depressed.

Then of course, the monthly red flag came in...

Oh well... I hope that this week will be better than the weekend.

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Feeling Bitchy

I have noticed that for the past couple of days, the bitchy side of me was taking the limelight. Rants and sly comments here and there. Irritable mood and fast mood swings. Catty remarks. You name it.

So I took a test to check my bitchiness scale.... and... tada!

You Are 44% Bitchy

Generally, you're an average woman, with average moods. But sometimes... well, watch out! Sometimes, you let your mean side get the better of you. And you enjoy every minute of it.

How Bitchy Are You?

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Ironing Out The Kinks

Last weekend was an emotionally-packed one, with Enrique and I ending up in tears, as we resolved our own concerns, disappointments, and issues.

It's a wake-up call for me, in a sense that I should exert more effort in making him feel that he has my full attention. I at first told him that he was being unfair (he felt bad that I'm too busy at work), but while we were talking, I fully understood him. It was also another reminder for me that before I do or say something, I have to consider what he would feel about it.

On his side, his standard for "showing affection and giving attention" was too high for me. I know that all his attention is mine, and he just expected that I will give him the same. This was the first time I heard him cry so hard.

I hope that our talk yesterday will help ease the gap between us. This is probably part of adjusting and accepting each other as we are. I really love him, and I know that he loves me so much. Sometimes I feel like giving up, and I feel too that he is running out of patience with me, but in the end, we just can't let go... we want to be together... we choose to be together.

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New Habit

As of last Tuesday I drank a total of 6 cups of coffee.

There is something seriously wrong with me.


PS: I am not a coffee drinker.

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