I'm officially overweight.
Oct 26, 2012
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Oct 24, 2012
My Little Footballer
Check out my little girl in her first football clinic!
At first she was all skeptical about football but she ended up loving it! When she went home, she couldn't stop telling me what happened and asked when the next football session will be.
I'm so glad that my little girl is into sports too. My my, she's such a well-rounded person. She loves cooking, reading, writing, drawing, crafts, music, make pretend in front of the camera, and now this... sports!
I hope that her spirit will all the more grow and her interest in all the things she's into right now will not wane. She has grown so much I couldn't help but reminisce: from the time my pregnancy test confirmed she's there, to listening to her heartbeat using a fetal doppler, the moment i saw her face, when i gave birth, when she first smiled, etc etc. Wow. Amazing.
Gotta love that kid. And I'm proud she's mine. :)
I'm so glad that my little girl is into sports too. My my, she's such a well-rounded person. She loves cooking, reading, writing, drawing, crafts, music, make pretend in front of the camera, and now this... sports!
I hope that her spirit will all the more grow and her interest in all the things she's into right now will not wane. She has grown so much I couldn't help but reminisce: from the time my pregnancy test confirmed she's there, to listening to her heartbeat using a fetal doppler, the moment i saw her face, when i gave birth, when she first smiled, etc etc. Wow. Amazing.
Gotta love that kid. And I'm proud she's mine. :)
Oct 22, 2012
Unfocused
Warning: this is depression talking.
Blame it on asthma, but I'm quite feeling down these past few days. Thoughts of discontent, failure, and hopelessness entered my mind during the weekend. I know it's not a healthy thing especially since weekends are supposed to be a time of joy, love, living, and relaxing.
First, discontent. I love my home. I try so hard to make it as home-y and as beautiful as possible, so that my husband will always cherish and long for our home whenever he's away. Also, I want that all my guests would feel at home when they're around. However, seeing beautiful homes like my Uncle's always makes me think why I do not have the home-n-garden wish I've always wanted. They say, go buy a lot. It's cheap here. I know it is, but I'm not sure if we'd have enough funds to buy the land plus build a house. Enter the feelings of hopelessness and failure. Hopelessness, because maybe that dream will just always be that, just a dream. Failure, because I failed to plan ahead and stop giving in to my wants in order to move towards that goal. I know I should not regret on decisions I took before, but sometimes, like now, I am tempted to regret.
Next, failure. A lot of things here. Failure at work? Maybe, because what happened was not what I expected or planned to be. I know, I know, the saying "God has plans for you while you make plans for yourself" or something like that. But, I couldn't help but wonder why things have to be this way, what did I actually learn from the changes to make me a better person or make me be better in what I do? I'm already at the stage of acceptance but when certain complications, no matter how small come along the way, it gets me back to square one, and then i feel trapped. There's so much to say about work but I'm just trying to be positive. I've heard one say before, those who don't see that positive are losers, but of course, I disagree with that (among other things that person said). It's just that it is a struggle, and I think I'm just being honest with myself when I say it is sometimes a challenge to see things positively especially if something negative happened. Does that make me a loser?
Failure at home? I'm still struggling to be better at being a home maker (even while working) and there too are times when I feel (or other people make me feel) that I am a failure on this aspect. I'm not good enough as a Mom, I'm just being lazy, etc etc. Sorry if how I was raised was different from how others were raised, but I don't think both views are not correct. They're just different, and I think both styles/views must be respected. Yet, even with this belief, there really are days when I feel like a total failure as a person. :( I know I'm not perfect, but I think in some ways I have a "somewhat" pure heart with a desire to do good and have compassion for others.
Last, hopelessness. I feel that there is so much that I can contribute but I'm not in the right setting. It makes me think if I would have been happier if I did push through in being a missionary and teach/preach. Maybe I'd have more happiness there? I don't know, but I feel a bit hopeless and uncertain that I will be truly happy. It's like I have this calling, but i don't know what to do and I feel trapped.
All these actually paralyze me and make me unable to move and breathe right. Maybe this whole depression thing is what triggers my asthma. It nows goes full circle. I blame it on asthma that I'm depressed and typing away, but my conclusion too is that my depression causes my asthma. *Sigh* Sometimes I just wish my asthma will just take me away. :(
It is true, what I sometimes say, that beneath this happy-go-lucky, always bubbly, artsy-emo person is a lonely soul. Maybe all my fashion-y beauty stuff are just temporary fixes to help me deal. *Sigh*
To whoever reads my blog, please do pray for my sanity. Thanks.
Blame it on asthma, but I'm quite feeling down these past few days. Thoughts of discontent, failure, and hopelessness entered my mind during the weekend. I know it's not a healthy thing especially since weekends are supposed to be a time of joy, love, living, and relaxing.
First, discontent. I love my home. I try so hard to make it as home-y and as beautiful as possible, so that my husband will always cherish and long for our home whenever he's away. Also, I want that all my guests would feel at home when they're around. However, seeing beautiful homes like my Uncle's always makes me think why I do not have the home-n-garden wish I've always wanted. They say, go buy a lot. It's cheap here. I know it is, but I'm not sure if we'd have enough funds to buy the land plus build a house. Enter the feelings of hopelessness and failure. Hopelessness, because maybe that dream will just always be that, just a dream. Failure, because I failed to plan ahead and stop giving in to my wants in order to move towards that goal. I know I should not regret on decisions I took before, but sometimes, like now, I am tempted to regret.
Next, failure. A lot of things here. Failure at work? Maybe, because what happened was not what I expected or planned to be. I know, I know, the saying "God has plans for you while you make plans for yourself" or something like that. But, I couldn't help but wonder why things have to be this way, what did I actually learn from the changes to make me a better person or make me be better in what I do? I'm already at the stage of acceptance but when certain complications, no matter how small come along the way, it gets me back to square one, and then i feel trapped. There's so much to say about work but I'm just trying to be positive. I've heard one say before, those who don't see that positive are losers, but of course, I disagree with that (among other things that person said). It's just that it is a struggle, and I think I'm just being honest with myself when I say it is sometimes a challenge to see things positively especially if something negative happened. Does that make me a loser?
Failure at home? I'm still struggling to be better at being a home maker (even while working) and there too are times when I feel (or other people make me feel) that I am a failure on this aspect. I'm not good enough as a Mom, I'm just being lazy, etc etc. Sorry if how I was raised was different from how others were raised, but I don't think both views are not correct. They're just different, and I think both styles/views must be respected. Yet, even with this belief, there really are days when I feel like a total failure as a person. :( I know I'm not perfect, but I think in some ways I have a "somewhat" pure heart with a desire to do good and have compassion for others.
Last, hopelessness. I feel that there is so much that I can contribute but I'm not in the right setting. It makes me think if I would have been happier if I did push through in being a missionary and teach/preach. Maybe I'd have more happiness there? I don't know, but I feel a bit hopeless and uncertain that I will be truly happy. It's like I have this calling, but i don't know what to do and I feel trapped.
All these actually paralyze me and make me unable to move and breathe right. Maybe this whole depression thing is what triggers my asthma. It nows goes full circle. I blame it on asthma that I'm depressed and typing away, but my conclusion too is that my depression causes my asthma. *Sigh* Sometimes I just wish my asthma will just take me away. :(
It is true, what I sometimes say, that beneath this happy-go-lucky, always bubbly, artsy-emo person is a lonely soul. Maybe all my fashion-y beauty stuff are just temporary fixes to help me deal. *Sigh*
To whoever reads my blog, please do pray for my sanity. Thanks.
Oct 19, 2012
Blue Moonstones
Blue moonstones... yes, this is my current fixation. For some reason I am drawn towards it. Maybe it's because of what I posted earlier about the Celtic Tree Calendar. Hahaha.
Anyway, I ordered for a custom-made ring and hopefully I will receive it in 1-2 weeks.
It's not as exquisite as the blue moonstone used for this ring (which is uber-expensive), but I'm sure I will be very happy with my very own!
The design for my ring would look like this:
And will have two small emeralds on both sides. :)
I wish I'd have this kind of blue moonstone (the bluer, the better, and the best coming from Sri Lanka)...
But hey, I don't live beyond my means (most of the time)!
I'm excited already! If everything turns out fine, then I'd post it and even "promote" the seller hahahaha!
Anyway, I ordered for a custom-made ring and hopefully I will receive it in 1-2 weeks.
It's not as exquisite as the blue moonstone used for this ring (which is uber-expensive), but I'm sure I will be very happy with my very own!
{Image from Fay Cullen}
The design for my ring would look like this:
I wish I'd have this kind of blue moonstone (the bluer, the better, and the best coming from Sri Lanka)...
{Image from Art of Platinum}
But hey, I don't live beyond my means (most of the time)!
I'm excited already! If everything turns out fine, then I'd post it and even "promote" the seller hahahaha!
Oct 16, 2012
Eight-Rayed Star
Let there be beauty and strength, power and compassion, honor and humility, mirth and reverence within you.
Reading People
There are some people who take pride in being "good in reading people." I don't want to seem rude or negative about it, but honestly, I think it's something that one should not "brag" about as if it's a very good thing to be skillful at.
First of all, maybe it's just my way of thinking, but I don't take too much effort in trying to read people. I don't even want to try, even if one of the strengths people see in me is that I am very observant. Maybe it's because by nature I don't snoop into anyone's business? If I feel something, then I feel something. But it's not like I'll make an effort to try to read things.
Second, there is a danger of always trying to do so. I firmly believe that when you try to read people, it is not 100% objective. Why? because what you "read" is a mixture of what the person may be (or his/her mood, attitude, thinking, feeling, etc) and what you think the person is trying to show (probably based on what your sentiments are about that particular person). What you even think the person is manifesting can even be a projection of what you would be/do/act given you are in that same scenario.
So, no. Much as I am tagged as very observant, I refuse to even try to read people, unless I choose and decide to do so. A bit rare, only if I try to analyse scenarios. But really, more often than not, I take things as it is.
First of all, maybe it's just my way of thinking, but I don't take too much effort in trying to read people. I don't even want to try, even if one of the strengths people see in me is that I am very observant. Maybe it's because by nature I don't snoop into anyone's business? If I feel something, then I feel something. But it's not like I'll make an effort to try to read things.
Second, there is a danger of always trying to do so. I firmly believe that when you try to read people, it is not 100% objective. Why? because what you "read" is a mixture of what the person may be (or his/her mood, attitude, thinking, feeling, etc) and what you think the person is trying to show (probably based on what your sentiments are about that particular person). What you even think the person is manifesting can even be a projection of what you would be/do/act given you are in that same scenario.
So, no. Much as I am tagged as very observant, I refuse to even try to read people, unless I choose and decide to do so. A bit rare, only if I try to analyse scenarios. But really, more often than not, I take things as it is.
Oct 10, 2012
Celtic Tree Horoscope
February 18 – March 17: ASH Planet: Neptune Gemstone: Coral Ash people are good communicators, witty and spontaneous, and generally curious about life.
March 18-April 14: ALDER Planet: Mars Gemstone: Ruby Alders are filled with courage and affection, loyalty and determination. Your energy is considerable, you enjoy physicality, and love to play.
April 15 – May 12: WILLOW Planet: The Moon Gemstone: Moonstone Willows tend to be in touch with their emotions, intuitive, and adaptable. Underneath the appearance of hesitance, willows possess great flexibility and inner strength, along with a strong will.
May 13 – June 9: HAWTHORN Planet: Vulcan Gemstone: Topaz Hawthorns are spontaneous and sometimes impatient, possessing great confidence, creativity, and charm.
June 10 – July 7: OAK Planet: Jupiter Gemstone: Diamond Oaks tend to be self-confident and responsible, optimistic and proud, with ample charisma and a strong philosophical streak.
July 8 – August 4: HOLLY Planet: Earth Gemstone: Red Carnelian Holly people are cautious and practical, reasonable and filled with personal integrity, sensitive and protective.
August 5 – September 1: HAZEL Planet: Mercury Gemstone: Amethyst Hazels are very perceptive, idealistic, and artistic. Wisdom and creativity are especially important to hazel people.
September 2 – September 29: VINE Planet: Venus Gemstone: Emerald Vine folks are very sensitive and self-critical, gentle and romantic. You can be quite authoritative, and harmony is of great importance to you.
September 30 – October 27: IVY Planet: The Moon Gemstone: Opal Ivy people are social and loyal to their friends, kindly but sometimes restless, and, although appearing hesitant, actually very strong.
October 28 – November 24: REED Planet: Pluto Gemstone: Jasper Reeds tend to be fearless and stubborn, uncompromising and independent, imaginative, loyal, and sometimes jealous.
November 25 – December 23: ELDER Planet: Saturn Gemstone: Jet Elders are energetic, self-disciplined, although disliking routine, open, spontaneous, and self-sufficient.
December 24 – January 20: BIRCH Planet: The Sun Gemstone: Rock Crystal Birch people tend to be hard-working and ambitious, with strong leadership qualities. You are generally loyal and faithful, although you may tend to hide your feelings.
Oct 7, 2012
White Kitchen Is Coming
Finally. I mustered up all that we've got to finally renovate our kitchen area. Yes, I know this was long overdue, but it's ok. Now, it is coming true. I'm gonna have my white kitchen!
Husband was (as always) hesitant about the impracticality of having an all-white kitchen. I know, I know, it will be quite high maintenance. But I really love white cabinets, and a pristine white countertop. His nephew, our architect, sided with me though. Hehehehe.
This design was given to us earlier this year. I still love it, so this is still a go.
Now, for the appliances... Hubby and I decided to just go all out and get a new set of cooking appliances. This time, we opted to go with what we originally wanted... induction hob and built-in oven...
Induction Stovetop...
We also got a black hood for this.
Yes, we've decided to go electrical this time. Plus, I love the technology behind induction cooking. I mean, how cool is this pic...
Then this is our built-in Oven
Our architect suggested, budget permitting, to have tiles on the spare wall. He read my mind actually, as I love having tiles too, Bisazza pa. Hahaha. Of course I won't get that as it's very expensive, but it's my inspiration.
I hope I could get something similar. Less of the gold though. Second choice actually is green, thanks to a photo of a kitchen in my Domino book.
Probably I'd get the white. Hehehe. We'll see. Again, tiles will be installed only if budget permits.
Now the lighting, we'll see if I would change our overhead lighting. Definitely though, we will have those cabinet lighting using LED lights. Tehehehe. All we have to do is check out an online cad library to help us design this portion of the kitchen. Tehehehe.
Splurge na talaga ito! I love cooking anyway, so it really does make sense for me to work on my kitchen. And the white, yes, predictable right? I am impractical that way. Hahaha.
Husband was (as always) hesitant about the impracticality of having an all-white kitchen. I know, I know, it will be quite high maintenance. But I really love white cabinets, and a pristine white countertop. His nephew, our architect, sided with me though. Hehehehe.
This design was given to us earlier this year. I still love it, so this is still a go.
Now, for the appliances... Hubby and I decided to just go all out and get a new set of cooking appliances. This time, we opted to go with what we originally wanted... induction hob and built-in oven...
Induction Stovetop...
Yes, we've decided to go electrical this time. Plus, I love the technology behind induction cooking. I mean, how cool is this pic...
Then this is our built-in Oven
I hope I could get something similar. Less of the gold though. Second choice actually is green, thanks to a photo of a kitchen in my Domino book.
Probably I'd get the white. Hehehe. We'll see. Again, tiles will be installed only if budget permits.
Now the lighting, we'll see if I would change our overhead lighting. Definitely though, we will have those cabinet lighting using LED lights. Tehehehe. All we have to do is check out an online cad library to help us design this portion of the kitchen. Tehehehe.
Splurge na talaga ito! I love cooking anyway, so it really does make sense for me to work on my kitchen. And the white, yes, predictable right? I am impractical that way. Hahaha.
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