If I Could Just Scream

If I could just scream now, I would.

If I could just put my music player with wireless speakers on full blast and scream to my heart's content, I would.

If I can just walk away from all these without thinking of the consequences, I seriously would.

But I am chained to this kind of wretched living. I am chained to a life that brings me down. A life that gives no comfort.

What can I do? Just scream at the top of my lungs?

That, I cannot even do.

All I can do is type away. All I can do is stare at the screen while angry tears fall. This is my nightlife anyway. I fall asleep because of exhaustion from endless crying. Every night. All-year.