Fixing our Finances

Well, our budget at least. I've been keeping an excel file of our Household budget and I must say that lately I have been quite poor in keeping it and staying withing. Hahaha. Blame it on depression, loneliness, and being undecided whenit comes to work/career. Anyway, I have just noted that our loans plus my time deposit is in one bank. It's just by coincidence, really, but at elast it's a relief since we'd only be dealing with one bank for the loans (nope, I did not plan for debt consolidation and all) then one bank for our savings (actually... two... my secret account hahahah also known as my payroll account).

For the past few days I've been blogging and plurking about my uncertainty in finalyl becoming a SAHM, and my friend J told me its not as if I have to work. Yeah, I do not have to work, given our current condition, but I just want to be a little more financially secure. Or is that being greedy already? It's not because of the material things I want to buy (well, partyly hahaha) but mostly because I want to make sure that our darling baby will have a good future, the best education we can afford, the best in everything. yes I know, nothing's perfect and we can't have the best of everything all the time, but at elast for Eanna, I really want her to live a comfortable life. *Sigh* Here I go again.

Anyway, I still keep on praying for guidance and hopefully our decision is right, and what's good for our family.