Feeling Blue

I don't know, but I really feel a bit off today. Started this afternoon, and lingered till now. This afternoon, I was busy preparing the letters for my staff on their job levels, salary increases, and performance bonuses. As I browsed through them, I started thinking about my own (I haven't seen mine). It just made me think that *sigh* I was really hoping that I'd have a good performance assessment. It was ok, and likely I'd receive a bonus too. It's just that I cannot help but feel sad for myself, because my score wasn't exactly what I have always gotten in my previous companies. I guess I'm just used to being sorta "top of the class" type of thing, and now, *sigh* it's not the case.

Gosh, can't believe I'm this down. I wanted to post something in FB but decided against it. Wanted to check out retail stuff like those in Personal Creations Facebook but then again I didn't want to splurge or spend too much just because I'm depressed.

*Sigh*

Sometimes I still think and wonder if this is the right work for me, if I'm in the right company, or if I really deserved that kind of assessment.

Yet, I just try to console myself that at least I have a job that pays good in a way, and that my work is something that honestly I do enjoy.

Oh well. Till next year I guess.