Tired

Just got home afte a really tiring, disappointing, depressing, and mostly stressful day. My nerves are sooooo wound up real tight right now and I am this close (imagine me doing that "this close" hand/finger gesture!) to giving up.

I know work is hectic and there is a different kind of pressure compared to my previous work, but I'm not so sure if this is really what I signed up for. Well, I thought it was, but with the current conditions, situations, and challenges, now I am not so sure.

All I can think about is how much of a failure I have been at work... :(

Yeah, it's depression talking. But I can't help but feel that way.

I'm a failure at home, and now I'm a failure at work, the one place or the one part of my life where I thought I excel at.

Yes, depression talking. I have so many hang ups.

I need a break, seriously. But I couldn't. I have so many things in mind. How I wish I could just go to a really luxurious spa and hang out in one of their clawfoot tubs. But I couldn't.

Maybe that's the reason why my cycle was sooooo delayed I thought I was pregnant. But I wasn't.

Work is taking its toll on me.

Yup, this really is me in a depressed state of mind.