Woman In Love

Is this normal? It has been a couple of days now but I'm still feeling this sudden burst of overwhelming feeling of being in love with my husband. Maybe the "I miss him so very much" plays a big part, but I don't know. I just can't shake him off my head, and sheesh, this huge feeling of infatuation and all. I can't fully explain it, but dang, I am so in love with my husband!

Redundant I know, but it is really surprising, especially when I remember the times, specifically during our wedding preparations, when we almost everyday argued about major or flimsy things. At that time I really thought our love for each other greatly lessened, and that sooner or later one of us will just give it all up. But after getting married, things seemed to change so much that it is as if we have started anew and the love between us became more intense. Sure, there was a time after our wedding when we argued about something major, which made me think that it will be downhill from then on. Yet, our bond just grew stronger. Then the baby news. This further strengthened our bond. I thought this "being in love" is at its maximum when we were still in the boyfriend-girlfriend stage. I was wrong. I couldn't be more in love than now.

Oh I don’t know. Maybe I'm just blabbing again. But you see, it is really a great feeling. Going crazy about someone, and knowing that that person is crazy in love with you too. Thank goodness I am married to this man.

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Gender Issues

As soon as people knew that I was pregnant, they started guessing whether our baby would be a girl or a boy. Of course, it's too early to say what gender, but the curious me wanted to know the likelihood. My friends told me to refer to the Chinese calendar on baby's gender, which depended on the age of the mother when she conceived, as well as the month of conception.

I checked out this site and the prediction was...



GIRL!!!


This was what people had to say:


Enrique: BOY

Everybody else: GIRL

Oh well, as long as our baby is healthy, that's the most important thing, right?

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Remembering Lolo

Since my grandfather died last Friday early early morn, I am still in denial that he is no longer with us. However, I just keep on remembering what the priest said in his homily... Tony is coming home. Yes, my grandfather was a good man, and he will remembered as such. If there is an MRT going to heaven, he would have freely been given a pass to go straight to his home.

I just felt a little sad when my Grandma uttered the words... "It's going to be a lonely life". I have seen how she has taken cared of my Lolo, and how much I wanted to be like her in that aspect. She has loved (and still does) my Grandpa so much.

I remember the time when he was rushed to the ER last year and was in the ICU. I cried so hard when I visited him. But he told me... "Don't cry Vannie, I'll be alright." And for a time after, he was indeed alright. I felt all the more sad because of what Enrique and I have decided during the Christmas holidays. Being newly weds, we opted to just spend our Christmas eve together in our little pad, even if in my family the tradition was to spend Christmas and New year's eve in our grandparents' house. In those two instances my grandma asked why we weren't there, but of course she understood. How I wished that I spent those times in their place. *Cry* But then again, I was relieved that at least Enrique and I were there to celebrate his birthday last February. My office had an affair, but of course much as they told me to go, I told them I will go to my Grandpa's birthday bash. The last time both of us saw him was during lunch sometime mid-February. He was still strong and joked around... *Cry*

Again, my Lolo was a very good man of God. And like what I said, he will remembered for being that person.

Anyway, while I was driving on my way to the office, I couldn't shake off the thought that this will happen to us as well. I suddenly felt depressed because I am sure I don't want to be left behind by Enrique. I think I wouldn't survive a day without him. *Sigh*. But that is something that every person must be prepared for, the time when the person you love most will come back home.

But for now, I will sorely miss my Lolo.

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14 Weeks Plus More

It's been really a while since I last blogged and quite a few things have happened already...


LOOK AT ME!

Hehehe... I'm still not used to me having this little bump. But I'm loving it!

My food intake somehow normalized, but still not up to par with my old eating habits. I had my upper braces back on, but I was able to adjust to it immediately, so my eating isn't affected.


The Sweetest Dream Will Never Do

It's been more than a week since Enrique went onboard his vessel to work, and up until now I'm still not used to him being away. I was really happy though to receive a long email from him, with a really long list of reminders. Hehehe, so very my husband.

I miss him so much, it really aches. Last night I kept on wishing that I should have held him longer than I did when we sleep, because I miss everything about him. I'm not even sure if he will be able to go home in time for my delivery, but I'm still praying really hard that his request would be granted. Any which way, I'm trying my best to prepare myself for that.

One relief though is that last February we have hired a Yaya to be with me. Sheesh, it seems though that the spirit of Enrique is with him because of her reminders and all. I think prior to him being away, he trained our yaya and fed her all his reminders. Hehehe.

Anyway, that's all for now. I'm just trying to keep things light or else I'd be depressed again, which of course is bad for our baby!

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